I have washed up on the shores of my life after yet another wave took me for a ride this past week.
I was attached to an outcome, which connected into my sense of purpose, survival, and value.
The actual outcome was something other than what I had expected – it was my “worst-case scenario”.
Big disappointment. Big lessons learned.
The “real” outcome sent me into a wave…a dance with the familiar inner players of fear, anxiety, and doubt.
However, they were joined by trust, commitment, and compassion. Oh, and that ever-faithful resilience.
I have had a week of treading water. The current carried me along and I surrendered. I didn’t know where I was going…I needed to pause and re-assess. What was this situation showing me? What was I having the opportunity to see, learn, understand? It was definitely an opportunity to evolve.
I spent the week both diving inward, allowing for extra time and space to write, journey, and meditate, as well as moving forward in growing my connections with colleagues and allies. I knew I needed a dynamic balance of inner and outer support.
In this past week, I trusted that the fog and depression were friends that I could trust…I allowed their voices to speak, their textures to be felt. The biggest gift and lesson came in letting them be heard and experienced without drowning in all the layers of stories and beliefs that come along for the ride in this time of vulnerability.
And for now, the fog has lifted. This arc of transition has come to a close, delivering me on the shore with an evolved vision of where I am headed as well as clarity on my next steps. Thank you. Yes to this vision and Yes to this journey!
